I'm back....

So I have been away for a long time, and I am pretty sure that no one is reading this anyway, so I feel pretty safe to let my feelings out there. Yesterday, my husband and I went and got an eye exam, and lo and behold, we have the same freaking perscription! Can you believe it? I could hardly contain my amazement.

I also cut some bangs. I know, big deal right? Well this is a big deal, ONLY because this is the FIRST time in my life that I actually love my hair. I have been using this new product - OJON. It is from the Ojon nut from South America, I don't care if it is some guy's gizz, this stuff is AMAZING! I flat ironed my hair, and it has so much shine and body, it looks like I am wearing a wig. I can't explain it, I will have to take a picture.

So of course the day I have perfect hair, I join the YMCA, and chose to start training for a Sprint Triathlon. I know, crazy...but that is what I am - Crazy Rachel

I hate to get political....

But I just have to for a minute. This is going to be one of the biggest elections of my time. Everyone assumes, I am black, so I will be voting for Obama. I read his book a couple of years ago, and I didn't agree with a lot of things that he said. I have waited to hear him say something that I do agree with. Still waiting... I am one of those voters, that is still "undecided."

My husband and I have very different views on the issues, and we said LONG ago, that we would not talk about politics or religion. It has worked for us thus far, but I would like to hear his opinion on some issues. There are so many HUGE propositions this year, that I feel I have to study all day Monday, so that I can vote on Tuesday. This is all making me very tired..

Tomorrow is Wednesday.

I have an infusion tomorrow, but I feel sick. I may have a fever. If I have a fever I can't have my infusion. This sucks!

Everyone asks me.

How are you?

I know that some of my friends mean it, while others don't. I just don't know what to say anymore...

Fine?
Ok?
Crappy?

I have gone through MANY life changing events. The difference between them, and this, is that eventually those pains go away. The losses get easier over time. They betrayal fades...

This will be with me FOREVER. I have come to the realization that I will be in some sort of pain, every single day, for the rest of my life. Being in chronic pain is it's own personal hell. I try to keep a positive outlook. I like to think, so many other people have it much worse. But there is a large percentage of the masses that I have it worse then. Do I feel sorry for myself? NO. I feel sorry for my family. I am sad for my close friends. They have to watch it, and there is nothing anyone can do for me.

So I have decided not to feel sorry for myself, and the answer to that question is going to be...

I feel blessed.

I have a family that loves me, THREE healthy boys, a lovely husband, and a wide circle of friends. Truth be told - things could be much worse. So my answer will be - blessed. If you are a close friend, or one of my doctors - I will give you a scale from 0-10. Ten being the worst.

Today I am a 6.

So much going on, yet, so little...

Somehow I hurt my right shoulder. It hurts with whatever I do. I see the doctor in the morning, and then the pain guy at noon. Busy day with really nothing much coming from it. I guess that sounds really negative, but that has just been my experience. I did get to take a class at my Local Scrapbook Store. Pink Pineapple Scrapbooks. It was doodling with Stephanie Ackerman. She is just the cutest! It really has kept me busy, since I can do it in bed. I also got to go down to La Jolla on Wednesday and see my best friend. That was nice. Just tired. Will let ya know what is going on after my appointments tomorrow.

Apple, the computer, not the fruit.

There is so much hype about the new iPods that just came out. They are really cool, coming in all those different colors (the nanos.) The new iPod touch,(http://www.apple.com) that is much thinner, and cheaper. The problem that I have is the new slogan.

iPod touch. The funnest iPod ever.

Seriously? I mean, come on. I am trying to raise intelligent kids! You know how dumb someone sounds when they say funnest? I just don't like it. I don't want to sound like a prude, maybe I am just old.

On another note - the free iPod touch offer is almost over. If you are a college student (or just say you are) You can get a discount on an apple computer. You also need to add an iPod to your order. You will then receive a rebate for the amount you spent on that iPod. Up to $300. The deal ends on September 15th, 2008.

Have more patience then money? Wait till June next year, they tend to do this every year.

And it comes full circle...

Been feeling sickly, and not so great. Went to the doctor today, and it looks like the Remicade is not going to work for me any more. It also looks like I need to go back on the chemo. This is just so depressing, and unnerving. I was so happy when I got off of it. I guess I am just a little overwhelmed, and way stressed out. My parents have been planning to move out, and that just adds to the stress. Looks like I am going to be sick every Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday.

I MISS MY LIFE!

On a brighter note - My bubba come back!! I go up to the Ontario Airport tomorrow to pick Devin up. It seems like he has been in Idaho for YEARS!! I miss him so much.

 

To be a cat...

In my house...

If there is an after life, that is what I would like to come back as...

an indoor "cat of color."


(yes, they match my decor...a mistake? I think not!)

 

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You have to see this...

ok, check this out. I was stunned when I saw it. Simply stunning, and I can't wait to get my hands on it. I have loved Chatterbox for years, now I am totally gone.

Buy Handmade!

I don't know if you know about this, but Etsy is my new favorite site. I go on everyday. What is really fun....you find something you like, add it to your favorites, and then click to see what is favorites by your favorites. It reminds me of how we used to surf the web. One link leads to another....

I got Ro a cape from this lady...
um, yes, it is Orange, and it is fabulous!!

Health update...infusion went well on Wednesday the 21st. I also got my last shot in my knee for lube. I also got another cortisone shot in my left shoulder. So I had a few needles in me. Things can only get better. Still really tired.

Croc Heels

For those that know me, you know that I LOVE crocs. I love the comfort, and ease, and just plain everything. I am just not sure how to feel about these.

I guess you should just be greatful that they don't have them in my size.

Planning a trip to Japan....

Ok, for those that know me, I love to plan things to death. When I got the chance to plan a trip to Japan, I jumped right on it. (well didn't actually jump) I have been doing some research, and I found this... Hello Kitty flight

Now I love Hello Kitty - actually chococat, as much as the next packrat that was never allowed to buy anything "useless." but this really scares me. I think it is just the thought of being with 200 little kids in an airplane singing along with the Japanese Hello Kitty voice over. I need a nap cause I am getting a headache.

I feel honored and blessed to know

Miss Tara Whitney. Not only is she a wonderful artist, but she has one of the biggest hearts. She photographed my family last year, and then a few months after did a shoot of my bestfiends on thier sailboat. If you can get her to capture your family as she has mine, consider yourself lucky.

Scrapbook Royalty

Scrapbook royalty is one of the coolest ideas I have seen. If you are into scrapbooking, and helping people, that this is for you. I have been to one of these events, and you will be surprised how get they are. Really above and beyond any and all of my expectations. The causes are great, and so are the people that run it! Sign up for the newsletter, and get updates often. Also, I just donated a ton of stuff, so look for it to be auctioned off in the next year!